Remembering Faith

It has been a week since I’ve moved into the Big Apple. In the past, I would have been leaving to go back home to Miami or Columbus by now, but not this time! This time, I’m home. I felt this as soon as I arrived last week. There was a change, like I’ve gone through a portal. Like I woke up and the place that was in my dreams became real. Even though I have spent several weeks here this last year, I’ve had the opportunity to experience many first: my first monthly Metro pass, my first experience re-parking on street cleaning day (yes, I brought a car), my first Sunday evening excursion to Trader Joe’s. One has to live it to understand it. I also bought a new bike and took my first 12 mile bike ride as a resident. This has been fun and exciting. Yes, I know that I am home.

I have explored neighborhoods, but have much more research to do as the place I am living is only temporary. I have two and a half weeks to find a permanent place. Though I haven’t found any new work yet, I have been able to work on things that I haven’t had time to the last few months: My production resume, getting my production reel together, etc. My work has followed my from Columbus. The school work with A+ Children’s Academy continues as I am finishing up the short documentary film and the web site. I also have touched up the title track for an upcoming film, Dreams For Sale, which is going to be previewed at the Coney Island Film Festival in a few weeks.

I am getting to make use of many of the spiritual principles that I’ve learned the last few years on a deeper level. Because of the practice time, I am grateful that I feel I am able to do so with peace and staying in the moment . . . most of the time. The challenge is that I don’t know the neighborhoods, I don’t know what I can afford in rent because I don’t know where the work is coming from and how much it will pay. I don’t know anything. I don’t know anything at all. I do have my moments, but I take a breath and remind myself that this breath is all I need. I’ve had enough experience with moving with faith to know that I am always provided for. As long as I stay away from trying to make something happen the way I think it “should” happen, keep an open mind and LET it happen naturally, all will be well.

I remind myself of the faith that took me into my second year of grad school at the University of Miami. A week before school started I had found out that, because of the recession, a chunk of my financial support was not available and my student loans were not going to cover tuition. I let the Dean know I was not going to be able to return unless I had some assistance. He told me that there was none available. I wrote him again and cc’d the President of the University. I had learned from my spiritual practices that God is my Source! Not my student loans, not my grants, not the University, not my pay check. I held to this and affirmed that I live in a Universe of great abundance. After a wonderful summer in Ohio with the family, the day arrived that I had to leave if I was going to be back in Miami for the first day of class. I packed my car and started my journey south, not knowing how I was going to pay the tuition or even have enough money to live. Half way to Miami, I received a call from the Dean and he told me that I was given a tuition voucher for partial payment. The only catch was that I had to be enrolled full-time both semesters. Since it was my last year, I only had to go part time the second semester. What this meant was that I actually was given more than I was asking for. I got to take an extra graduate class of my choice tuition free.

I have thought for a couple years that this most recent move to NYC was going to happen a couple different times. Both times, life showed me other plans. (I had work to do in Ohio and needed to be there to help start a new school) Yet, this time, it has happened in the right time and with ease. I moved here on faith. Now I get to expand that faith and not panic because I don’t see what is coming next. It is my choice how to perceive this time of transition. I get to enjoy this journey…enjoy the mystery…enjoy the moment of NOW!

I heard once that faith and fear are more similar than different in that they both are a belief in the unseen. I am choosing faith. Yes, I do have to put forth the effort, like I did when I wrote a letter to the President at UM. But that wasn’t the only effort I put forth to manifest the return to Miami: I applied for many grants, scholarships, etc. Now, three years later, I get to apply these principles with my increased awareness of faith, and continue listening to that Voice within that guides my thoughts and directs my feet toward the next step . . . wherever that may lead.

Thank you, Spirit of Love, for expressing Yourself creatively in me, through me, and as me. I know that it is your Will that has lead me here. You always succeed, therefore I am already a success.

On September 8th, 2012, posted in: Aha Revelations, Uncategorized by
One Response to Remembering Faith
  1. Skip, you are in the path of love, light, enlightement, and abundance. Thank you for writing this inspiring essay which has enlighten my day.
    Blessings.
    Carlos Perez
    Unity Ft. Lauderdale

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